well, well, well i've shown my true colors ehh,

well, i just HATE my life right now.

everything is truly fucked now.
some retard of a goon has ruined my FAMILY LIFE.
my parents will probably murder me then disown my body tomorrow..

i hate you.
so so so much..

well anyway,
'he's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar, the only thing that keeps me wishing me on a wishing star..'

why is it so hard to move on,
everyday its like a nightmare, just to see him having fun like that and ignoring me,
if you've not felt it, your living a dream babe, living a dream..

having a blog is like having an online diary right? so i can pour out all my troubles..
just not saying the name ;)



taylor swift is who im listening to.. may never stop shes so good,
true love dont exist.
ive come to a conclusion,

i know about heartbreak.. ive done it to myself so i know how my past boyfriends feel.
but.


why do i do it ?
beats me, even i dont know..

i dont know what i have, until i lose it..
which is a rather sad story..

but then again my life is one big SOB STORY,
aah im such a stupid .. URRGH,


i really, really miss him, but theres no way of getting him back..
hes not a fool, like the rest.. keep coming back for more..
not with you boy, you must know me too well..

but then again, why bother?
hm.

FML.

well im bored so im writing another blog,

my school day has been shit.
i know ive said it but.. it just got worse and worse,
cos one of my friends doesnt know i like a boy and unseemingly flirts with him but HE knows i like him and.. it just makes me feel like fucking SCREAMING.

if any of you have felt like this, you will feel my pain!
'its killing me softlyyyy...'

but lifes a bitch, get over it.
but. butttyy but but but. what makes it even WORSE..

oh just fuck everything!!

life is gayy!
but what would i do without my girls.
ohhhhh my special special girls,

helping me through most of my crap.


basically, generally, technically, literally.. my love life.

well yeah okay, bye guys (:

fucked up love life.

i know i keep moaning but theres this guy i really, really like.

at first, i thought he weren't really the one for me.. i got to know him, i spoke to him, i laughed, we chatted for ageeeees.
then we went out which was like the happiest week or two, of my new 2010.
and then something happened.
something so so stupid, that caused me to let go of what i had.

i thought i made the right choice. but i never do.
maya samuel always makes the wrong choices.

and now i regret it so much its actually unbearable :'(
and i wish i could have him back.

valentines day is also a dead-out for me. probably the worst day of the year, i end up with no one..
but theres nothing i can do now, im an ugly brace face and theres no chance of another 're-union'

well wish me luck with moving on,




Heartbreaker - Will.I.Am

well hellooo there once more :)

pretty crap weekend.

yesterday i raved.
today i lost a friend.
tomorrow is school.
how cool is my life.

yeeeeeeeeeeerrr well anyway school just topped off my week.
i like this boy, who likes someone else and is doing a pretty good job ignoring me.
pfffffft I DONT CARE.


well i do cos i really, really like you.



well anyway lets move on, haaaaaaa my start to 2010.
well the first month. i hate people who wrote 'omg amazing start, best friends always there for me' bla bla bla ITS FUCKING BULLSHIT.
HA yeah i BET u got pissed, i BET u stayed up all night, i BET u did all that.


i know i sound fackin depressing BUT THATS LIFE.


anyway im off and out, so seeeeeeee yaaa LOSSSSERRRRS, i have a LIFE rather than bloggin all day ;)

love ya :D

hmmmmmm well things have changed since my last 'post'

first ever blog of 2010,

well tbh.. i dont know what to say,
i've just about figured out how to use blogs > confused me at first.

but then EVERYONEEE got a blog, so i wanted one too,

lets rule out some things first,
i dont care about spelling or punctuation in this thing it just confuzzles me.
i dont like liars,
-cheats
-backstabbers
-betrayal
-dirty looks
-general bitches
-mushrooms

what i DOOO like someone to talk to,
-a good honest person
-a best friend
-a gay best friend (;
-a boy best friend
- ^ i want a lot of best friends :D
-an iPhone


well that probably tells you something about me. not much. but theres pervs on here int' there?
so i wont give out personal information. im not stupid.

er.. erm well, im on facebook atm like the most addicting thing on earth EVER created. erm im addicted to my phone, my iPod, snowball FIGHTS. not snow itself. its getting really annoying. everyones like 'OH MY GOD ITS SNOWING!' but its like, natural for england now not like one thing in a million years cos its snowed quite often now. so no big WOOP cos its gay.

im writing about general crap here that i cant even remember.

bloggings quite fun.
nothing to write about whatsoever, but its better than sitting on ure arse doing nothing.
well im sitting on my arse now but you know,
:)

im guna end this one cos im getting bored.
im going to go off and watch Snog, Marry or Avoid.

oh and i do love television :)
and msn, and facebook. and harry :)


bye everyoneee :) <3

oh and everyone puts this song of the day thing.
i want to do one as well :D

'we go togethaa, from wave to wave..'



quite a tune, Jah Cure ft Phyllisia - Call On Me






bye guys :D