well, well, well i've shown my true colors ehh,

well, i just HATE my life right now.

everything is truly fucked now.
some retard of a goon has ruined my FAMILY LIFE.
my parents will probably murder me then disown my body tomorrow..

i hate you.
so so so much..

well anyway,
'he's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar, the only thing that keeps me wishing me on a wishing star..'

why is it so hard to move on,
everyday its like a nightmare, just to see him having fun like that and ignoring me,
if you've not felt it, your living a dream babe, living a dream..

having a blog is like having an online diary right? so i can pour out all my troubles..
just not saying the name ;)



taylor swift is who im listening to.. may never stop shes so good,
true love dont exist.
ive come to a conclusion,

i know about heartbreak.. ive done it to myself so i know how my past boyfriends feel.
but.


why do i do it ?
beats me, even i dont know..

i dont know what i have, until i lose it..
which is a rather sad story..

but then again my life is one big SOB STORY,
aah im such a stupid .. URRGH,


i really, really miss him, but theres no way of getting him back..
hes not a fool, like the rest.. keep coming back for more..
not with you boy, you must know me too well..

but then again, why bother?
hm.

FML.

well im bored so im writing another blog,

my school day has been shit.
i know ive said it but.. it just got worse and worse,
cos one of my friends doesnt know i like a boy and unseemingly flirts with him but HE knows i like him and.. it just makes me feel like fucking SCREAMING.

if any of you have felt like this, you will feel my pain!
'its killing me softlyyyy...'

but lifes a bitch, get over it.
but. butttyy but but but. what makes it even WORSE..

oh just fuck everything!!

life is gayy!
but what would i do without my girls.
ohhhhh my special special girls,

helping me through most of my crap.


basically, generally, technically, literally.. my love life.

well yeah okay, bye guys (:

fucked up love life.

i know i keep moaning but theres this guy i really, really like.

at first, i thought he weren't really the one for me.. i got to know him, i spoke to him, i laughed, we chatted for ageeeees.
then we went out which was like the happiest week or two, of my new 2010.
and then something happened.
something so so stupid, that caused me to let go of what i had.

i thought i made the right choice. but i never do.
maya samuel always makes the wrong choices.

and now i regret it so much its actually unbearable :'(
and i wish i could have him back.

valentines day is also a dead-out for me. probably the worst day of the year, i end up with no one..
but theres nothing i can do now, im an ugly brace face and theres no chance of another 're-union'

well wish me luck with moving on,




Heartbreaker - Will.I.Am